diff --git a/gopher/listing.gophermap b/gopher/listing.gophermap index 180f4ec..58b56b8 100644 --- a/gopher/listing.gophermap +++ b/gopher/listing.gophermap @@ -1,3 +1,4 @@ +0stygian - y /stygian/instinctual_stuff.txt 0Cilix - 07-A Hitch /Cilix/07_a_hitch.txt 0Cilix - 06-Straight Down The Line /Cilix/06_straight_down_the_line.txt 0SS Beagle - Second_Entry /SS Beagle/Second_Entry.txt diff --git a/gopher/stygian/instinctual_stuff.txt b/gopher/stygian/instinctual_stuff.txt new file mode 100644 index 0000000..75707e7 --- /dev/null +++ b/gopher/stygian/instinctual_stuff.txt @@ -0,0 +1,50 @@ +57/13/FD3A 2:30 + +"Uh." + +I mumbled, as I started feeling unlike myself, again. This feeling creeps up on me, quite frequently nowadays. +I was always under the assumption that I could live alone, anywhere, as long as I was aware of what I do and +what I shouldn't do. +Even though I don't follow what I just said in the previous sentence, I had a good amount of faith in it. +It didn't give me any satisfying result for a few days now. + +Its been more than a 'millenia' (according to the time-sense of 'the humans of the old') since I left that +homely blue lil' planet, +which I give the least amount of damn out of all other unnecessary events I reminiscence. +But I still remember few thoughts of my teenage years which based my attitude. +One of which is 'a lass is pretty hard to please'. Having a bad experience with girls, +I ran out of my house when I was said I had been engaged to a daughter of some rich family(?). +I sprinted my way to a government-funded teleporter, +yeeted myself to 'The Great Human Explorer' space program institute, +registered myself for a solo-ship and naming it 'stygian', +and spending quite a bit of my pocket-money in order to bribe the officials, +to have my ship manufatured under foremost priority so that I could leave as early as possible. +I stayed in a tiny motel for a few days 'til I received the message that I could fly to space. + +I rushed to the Miru Space Station, boarded my 'stygian' and had a smooth takeoff. +As I floated up in space, crossing pass the satellite which had kind of (atleast visually) +trapped the lil' blue planet, I felt free. I had no one nor anything that I missed in there. +Families had become very smaller during that time, unlike the previous century of that time, +when nuclear families were prominent. +During my teenage years, only couples and their children till they reach 16 existed. +After reaching 16, parents were legally liberated from their duties of babysitting +and teens had also made to know that they ought to not depend on their parents henceforth, +which wasn't a surprise to them (or us) as we were brought up being taught of it. +Any family drama or emotions of the very old had become non-existent during that time +(history says so, I frigging have no clue if the ancients had made their kids +indulge in familial love or whatever bullshit in that blue planet). +I just felt a bit sorry for the lil' lady who was to have me as her fiance. +Quite unlucky she was. +But I had a satisfying letter written for my family and my has-been-for-a-short-time fiance, +regarding my departure. +My parent's wouldn't have cared, but I was happy that I atleast gave an explanation. + +With that, I also had decided to stay alone and not find a mate. +It was fine for a very long time. But now, it seems like its not possible. +I think that my humanly instincts have started to kick in. +I feel like missing something- a comfort, a safe-haven, a person to confide, +a person to have my arms looped around their waist, a person to hug and a person to kiss. +Maybe I'm reminiscing a bit too much or whatever. But the feeling have intensified quite a bit. +I have to find a way to suppress it. + +"Oof."