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<h1 id='title'>Cold-induced irritability</h1>
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<time datetime='Tue, 20 Dec 2022 23:00:00 CST'>20 Dec. 2022, 11:00 PM</time>
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I don’t know if it’s correct to call what I’m experiencing anger, but there is something recognizably similar going on in my nervous system in extreme cold.
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Maybe it’s just an innate bracing reaction.
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In any case, when I step outside into –20°F (–29°C) air, I feel a sudden spike of something very similar to rage.
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Usually it’s brief and I can adjust, but it leaves me wondering: what am I getting angry at?
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I am not prone to anger, dispositionally speaking.
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I think I’m also just lucky to not have much in my life worth getting angry over.
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But when it’s really cold out, even if I’m inside, I feel much more sensitive to small irritations.
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Small things I normally wouldn’t notice can become like nails on a chalkboard.*
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<figcaption>Photo credit: <a href='https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Looking_Up,_Very_Jagged_(11940524546).jpg#Licensing'>Eric Kilby</a></figcaption>
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I might be subconsciously responding to the hostility of the outside environment with a defensive posture.
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Maybe the cold is causing me to compensate with tension in parts of my body that increase my touchiness.
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It’s probably an opportunity for me to practice a little mindfulness and unwind my natural cold-reaction.
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That’s all I have to say about the cold for now.
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It’s late, so I’m tired, and also worn out from bracing myself against the cold I know is out there.
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I hope everyone around here can stay warm tonight, especially those without permanent shelter.
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Does it get cold where you live? Do you notice a weird anger-like reaction to extreme cold?
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Do you have some other emotional response to the weather where you live?
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Let me know your thoughts at my Ctrl-C email: <code>gome<span style='user-select: none;'> ​</span>@<span style='user-select: none;'> ​</span>ctrl-c.club</code>.
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* If you’ve never heard ice & snow & cold metal scraping against each other at these temperatures, it’s actually worse than nails on a chalkboard by a long shot.
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